HIS and ONLY HIS! (Mason's love, God's child)

  I know that I am young , so I've been told tons of times, and that thinking I will not ever love again, is apart of grieving ... I KNOW WITH A SHOUT OF A DOUBT THAT I WILL NOT EVER LOVE ANOTHER MAN (at all) IN THE WAY THAT I HAVE LOVED MASON! I am not and will not ever be open to another relationship , I am his wife and he is my husband ... I believe in my heart it is more than just "TIL DEATH DO US PART!" I am faithfully waiting for my husband , though I can't see him physically , doesn't mean he isn't with me .. He had a purpose and God had told me (I misunderstood at that moment) that the end was near and I didn't hesitate to help open Mason's heart to God's plan..

Would I change it if I would have know that GOD was showing me my husband was going to be with him soon? Would I have made sure that he didn't take him?

No, and no... I want my husband back to hug, kiss, and to love here physically just like the next wife , but I know that GOD had and has a BIG PLAN set out in front of me and I am here fully to fulfill his plan and to be here completely heart and soul for my babies! I know that I do not need a physical partner (hense why I believe God had set this out for Mason and myself to do).. I KNOW MASON IS THERE FOR ME AND OUR BABIES!

 I may be different from most people ... but I am meant to be .. so please except my opinion on going away from my marriage and God and give into what the human body wants, needs, ect... I am living only as a vessel and a mother now and I will not allow human wants to pull me away from God's plan ... I will be reunited in Mason's arms one day .. I truely am very thankful for all prayers and kind words and for those that have tried to help me and let me know about the grieving process, it has helped ...

May God Bless you and thank you for reading .. Much love Anna Cluck!