Living with A Broken Heart!

  I am in a struggle daily to fight for my life, and to keep myself healthy for our little one inside my whomb... My health is very important at this time in my pregnancy , and I feel like I'm in this tug-a-war game with myself! I have noticed lately a few things that are flagged with my health ... It is a day to day process living with out your other half! It's not easy and it is not replaceable... Nothing can ease the pain of knowing you have to wake up and face another day without them , and to force yourself to get out of bed and live , when all you want to do is just give up  ... BUT YOU CAN'T!

Things I have noticed that this process has done to my physical body with in this 1st month:
*Fatigue - I always want to sleep, dont want to get up though I have to it's a struggle to stay standing!
*Depression- Don't want to see any reason to live without him, but I know I have (2) important reasons to strive to live.
*Emptiness- I did lose my best friend! When you lose your husband/wife it takes a big piece of you and slowly tairs at whats left....
*Headaches- If I even attempt to stand up more than 10-20 minutes , I start to have really bad headaches..
*Chest tightness- felt like I couldn't breathe or like my lungs and stomach region were closing up it resulted in my throwing up.
*Shooting Pains- ONLY on right side from shoulder to foot.
*Nauseus - could be a lil from pregnancy
*Lip sores- raw spots on bottom inside lip

Right now I can't think of many more.. but I just feel like I am in a struggle to make myself strive to stay here while I also want to be with Mason... I am so confused lately about how I feel ..I am truely fighting ... I feel like I am slipping away and the thing is I am strong spirited , I have always been afraid of death ever sense I was a small child, but my heart is breaking so bad and I miss him so it is just ripping my spirit and will to fight straight from me... I love my babies and I want to have the strength to live for them ... I am so lost , I am in the middle and I wish part of me could be here for them and part of me with him!

I was asked to look up this site about the widowhood effect or broken heart syndrome..
Can you die from a broken heart? YES! Ladies if you are in the same situation as myself or even if you've lost your baby this can benefit you to read this... Take care of yourselfs the best you can ...

http://janderson99.hubpages.com/hub/Can-you-Really-Die-of-a-Broken-Heart

Anna Cluck