"I'm Always With You"

  I love waking up from my dream and knowing I spent it with you, Mason , it was short and sweet, I'm sure I had others before it but the ones with you are unforgettable! We were running on a main road behind vehicles and we were holding hands , I was kind of leading you as you were following and holding onto my hand, I would look back at you and I remember thinking (we spoke with thought) this way. Then we spotted your dad in what I thought was a lil white car, but ended up being a big white truck. We ran over to where he had pulled over to pick us up and you went all the way around the other end but still came to get in on the same side as me. We were sitting in the back together. Once we climbed in and your dad shut the door I layed as if I was below you a lil and you lowered your hand and arm down to where I was and I joined my arm with yours as if we were holding on to one another by our forearm softly , like you were saying I'm here, I'm here, and I got you ... I remember looking at our arms inter twined and thinking how special a moment this is and just admiring the love I felt between us as if you were telling me no matter where I go or what I do you will always be there by me as though we are apart of one another and our love can't be separated.. Two hearts that beat as ONE truly and one soul that was split for the two of us so we would end up ONE... I love you Mason Singleton Cluck...

I love seeing you in my dreams and knowing we can still be together while I wait to be with you and never to part.

 

Anna Cluck

 

"Pink or Blue?"

  Well I truely was hoping for a boy, and I was truely determined it was going to be a boy .. Though God had other plans , so her name is "Mason Olivia Cluck"! Yes it's a GIRL!
                        

 Mason- from her wonderful daddy that had to go home to the Lord! To prepare his family the best of the best up there for when we are able to join him ...

Olivia- I was torn up thinking we hadn't got to choose a girl name together since we both were so certain for a boy... But then , I remembered what Mason wanted our little Natalie Grace to be named. He originally loved the name "Olivia Grace" and I just had to have her named Natalie so we bumped Olivia and used "Natalie Grace"... So now I will name this sweet angel after her daddy and the name he thought was just beautiful! So she is a "Mason Olivia"!

Our babies have such sweet memories that I will share with them , their daddy had a heart of gold, not a day passed by that he didn't play and hold his Natalie, and I know deep down that right now as Mason Olivia is growing in mommy's whomb she is reciding with her daddy in heaven playing and soaking up all his gentle hugs , til she's ready to come face this world with Mommy and Big Sissy! My angels here are my babies, and my angel that awaits me in heaven is their daddy, my husband, Mason Singleton Cluck! What a day awaits my daughters and me, that day when we awake to eternity and his arms spread wide open just aching to hold us , and the best part is that in that moment in that time , we will have ETERNITY!

 Thank you Lord for our many blessings! Two beautiful lil girls from the man I love with my whole heart and soul! I love you Mason , WE love YOU!!!!

                     

Our nephew , Noah, kissed by our sweet Natalie!

Our beautiful neice, Kaylee, hugging our Natalie!

 

Pictures from Mason's cross 4/17/2013

 

 

Anna Cluck

 

"When Does It End"

  I am trying to stay strong for my little girl, Natalie, and our unborn baby .. For if I didn't have them to push me along in this thing called life , I don't know if I could have made it a day after finding out I had lost the one person that meant the world to me , their daddy! I've heard countless times , "It gets better in time." Well what if I don't want it too? I just can't see it getting better, BETTER would be having him here beside me at night and kissing me when I least expect it and putting his arms around me from behind and whispering, "I love you, Anna!" Oh, how I miss those words streaming from his lips... I will not ever see how time will heal because whether others understand or don't , I woke up in this life, this nightmare... Literaly woke up to hearing two kind officers tell me the worst news I could possibly ever have to hear! I lost my love, my childrens daddy, my husband, and my soulmate to this thing we call life! I do believe it is God's plan and God's will that my Mason had to leave us to go to his eternal home, I am just afraid that I will not be able to love him there as I did here and the thought of that just rips at my heart and it's like telling me he died all over again! As far as I am concerned , there was two people in that car, two people in that casket , and two people in that urn... What am I here for ? Why did I live or did I? Why do I have the privilage of raising our beautiful babies, and not him? What caused God to need Mason before he needed me ... Then I begin to think well , I know I wouldn't want Mason to feel this pain ad grief I feel to this very day! I wouldn't want him to hurt, or cry! I'm not strong , I am literaly dying inside because I am stuck in this life , that I once thought was perfect , and now is falling apart in front of my face... How do I help my little girl and her little sibling know that their daddy loves them so very much and that he is with them every day... Why couldn't he hold his second child? This is like living in a horror movie and the thing that hurts is I have some that don't understand and think I am hurting myself... NO I'M NOT , I am hurting inside because I had to wake up to a life that is not mine, not my kids, we had a perfect little family Saturday, February 16th, 2013 , we had things looking up for us , a new home and our first night there, then the next morning my husband told me he was going to get us some breakfast , because we hadn't got our fridge put in yet ,and then told me he loved me , and he didn't come home! Or maybe I did wake up in an endless nightmare... This has to be worse than death itself! I am stuck and I will not and can not ever "MOVE ON"... "TIME will not HEAL"!!!!

I want to wake up and him be there holding me telling me it was all a dream and our sweet Natalie in between us and us family hugging :o)

Our babies need me and I am fully focusing on them and what they need ! I don't need time to heal anything that isn't healable! I'm forever 1/2 dead inside til I am in his arms again safe and sound!

I LOVE YOU MASON SINGLETON CLUCK!!!!

Anna Cluck

Heaven is Only a Glimpse Away.

    I do not recall much of the dream, I do know something had happened and you ,Mason, and myself were waiting on Natalie. We were a bit sad at first but when we saw her she came up to us and we all did our family hug! As we were gathered in each others arms, I felt this beautiful light full of gorgeous stars encircle us fully, and we began to acsend into the sky (roof of a building that quite looked like a hospital) . Then the next thing I know we were in Heaven , as we walked into Heaven, I saw Jesus to our left smiling , I do not remember his features but my soul knew it was he, Christ himself! Then we kept walking and everyone smiling , it was like a welcoming , yet the best most beautiful welcoming ever! I know I was thinking man it is beautiful here, and so peaceful! There are no words to explain the feelings I felt and the beauty that was all around! It was beautiful!


Anna Cluck

In My Dreams, We Can Be..

  I love falling to sleep at night , then you are there , we spent the whole night together ... I believe we were at my Nona's there were a lot of pple around the whole time , every where we went! I didnt pay any attention to them as I was with you , we were sitting on Nona's love seat , we did see a little blonde headed lil girl run in front of us going to Nona's kitchen, that made me feel sad , I began to miss Natalie , I looked at you and started crying saying how I miss her so much ... You told me you knew ( I think that you were showing me how much you miss your baby girl!) . I remember after that , by myself, running to a place down a hill where a bunch of people were sitting , they were watching an ECLIPSE (it had the beam of a star meeting in the middle) , I had my camera, I ran to you and told you come with me and watch this , it is so beautiful! You came running with me down hill , we ,I believe, climbed on the back of a truck (red, may have been yours) and I took pics of the eclipse and you smiling at me , then as the eclipse and star met you put your arms around me , with your hands on my face and KISSED me, it felt so real, I even felt the moist of your sweet kiss , and the weigt of your lips on mine.. It was so beautiful ... I then before waking up remember going through all the pictures and I saw the eclipse just as I did with you and I saw the pictures of you smiling at me , just as you had.. It was like I knew I was just visiting you ..

Mason I need you to know that I love you and I understand you may be out of my sight and you can only reach us in our dreams, if what I felt for Natalie at the beginning is what you are feeling , I am so so sorry.. I wish that I could open up and really see what I do have ... I know you must be like me and waiting anxiously to hold Natalie and me in your arms again , just as we are you! I love you so much and I thank you for sharing that feeling with me , I now see the bigger picture. I can love, hold, and kiss you through our babies.. and I can share your love for them through myself! I love you my sweet sweet husband , my angel! Please know I love our visits and it helps me through the days ahead , til we meet again!

Your Wife, Anna Cluck ...

 

"How Have You Been?"

      How have you been? I have been ask this question so much and I respond the same everytime, "Good". What does this mean ? Do I feel good? No, Yes, Not exactly..... I feel like I am restrained here in a nightmare , the only light I see in this dark world is my babies and GOD! I feel like I am losing my husband more and more everyday... Why can't he just come walking through the door? I do keep faith everyday , but I do , like anyone else, I ask God why? ... We had so much and I am going to keep the memories for my babies, I want them to know, they have one daddy and only one , there will always be one father for my children and one husband , man in my life! I do not want things to better in time, I am in a dark time of my life , and what lil light there is , will remain the only lil light I have. I am waiting to be called home to join my dear husband , I do pray it doesn't take a lifetime but if it is God's will then years will mean nothing . For 20 years here is a day in heaven. I thank God for allowing me to see the reason for him taking Mason, I am thankful for allowing us to have two children together! I am thankful to him for such supporting family and friends! I love you all so so much and may God bless you and bring many blessings your way! I just hope that my family can be used, to better the lives of others, for God needs us to be thankful for all we have because LIFE IS VERY PRECIOUS AND DELICATE! So cherish every moment and make many memories !

Anna Cluck..

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Marriage between ONE HUSBAND and ONE WIFE ...

    A true marriage in my eyes , where there are exchanging of vows and rings to one another is a love that will and should last forever , and in my case the woman or man should love their husband/wife enough to ensure their commitment before God is fulfilled! Why do we wear rings? A ring itself is never ending and that is how God intended for spouses love to be for one another , and even in death should that partner be loved just as they are here with the living spouse! A RING IS NEVER ENDING AND IS ETERNAL!
Following I copied : The unending circle or wedding ring is a symbol of eternity. For Christian couples, the exchanging of the wedding rings is the outward expression of the inward bond, as two hearts unite as one and promise to love each other with fidelity for all eternity. Likewise, the wedding covenant and the husband and wife relationship is a picture of the relationship between Jesus Christ and his bride, the church. Husbands are urged to lay down their lives in sacrificial love and protection. And in the safe and cherished embrace of a loving husband, a wife naturally responds in submission and respect. Just as the marriage relationship, symbolized in the unending circle, is designed to last forever, so too will the believer's relationship with Christ endure for all eternity.

Though God does give us free will to choose to end that eternal promise if a spouse passes or if both agree into divorce, but you must remember that if you remarry due to a husbands/wifes passing you will not have an eternal love in heaven other than Jesus and God himself... LOVE BETWEEN A HUSBAND AND WIFE IS SACRED IN GODS EYES .... Think of it this way if God was here as your husband and you were his wife, and You passed away do you think God would honor the vows he promised you? I know he would! I felt led to share this and to help others to understand how I feel and see this ..
I love my husband and though he isn't physically with me doesnt mean I am lonely or sad , it means he is closer to me now than when he was physically here with us .. Faith is the key to finding true LOVE (eternity with God) !

http://christianity.about.com/od/symbolspictures/ig/Christian-Symbols-Glossary/Christian-Circle.htm