In My Dreams, We Can Be..

  I love falling to sleep at night , then you are there , we spent the whole night together ... I believe we were at my Nona's there were a lot of pple around the whole time , every where we went! I didnt pay any attention to them as I was with you , we were sitting on Nona's love seat , we did see a little blonde headed lil girl run in front of us going to Nona's kitchen, that made me feel sad , I began to miss Natalie , I looked at you and started crying saying how I miss her so much ... You told me you knew ( I think that you were showing me how much you miss your baby girl!) . I remember after that , by myself, running to a place down a hill where a bunch of people were sitting , they were watching an ECLIPSE (it had the beam of a star meeting in the middle) , I had my camera, I ran to you and told you come with me and watch this , it is so beautiful! You came running with me down hill , we ,I believe, climbed on the back of a truck (red, may have been yours) and I took pics of the eclipse and you smiling at me , then as the eclipse and star met you put your arms around me , with your hands on my face and KISSED me, it felt so real, I even felt the moist of your sweet kiss , and the weigt of your lips on mine.. It was so beautiful ... I then before waking up remember going through all the pictures and I saw the eclipse just as I did with you and I saw the pictures of you smiling at me , just as you had.. It was like I knew I was just visiting you ..

Mason I need you to know that I love you and I understand you may be out of my sight and you can only reach us in our dreams, if what I felt for Natalie at the beginning is what you are feeling , I am so so sorry.. I wish that I could open up and really see what I do have ... I know you must be like me and waiting anxiously to hold Natalie and me in your arms again , just as we are you! I love you so much and I thank you for sharing that feeling with me , I now see the bigger picture. I can love, hold, and kiss you through our babies.. and I can share your love for them through myself! I love you my sweet sweet husband , my angel! Please know I love our visits and it helps me through the days ahead , til we meet again!

Your Wife, Anna Cluck ...